I am going to make this post a quick one since its kind of a last minute post.

Tomorrow will be the CCA camp that the excos have been preparing so hard for, to be honest i actually wanted to skip the camp but seeing them working so hard to make it a success, i can't help but want to help...( its dumb of me i know =_=)

Anyway, i wanted to answer the question my aunt throw at me. She asked whether if i am going for prom, my reply is no and she just accused me as anti-social. Well ya, i am anti-social but life is an act, there is always a way to get the 10 people to go but the thing is i have no reason to go, the one i want to go with ain't going so there is no point in going.

Random statement: there is no need for despair and saddness, walk the path that you want to walk and not the path that you have to walk.Don't question whether if its right or wrong for it is not meant to be ponder on, keep walking until the music fades

Beings that live between the light and the dark.
Supporting from the back and fading away when not required.
A life to serve and only to serve, to live is to serve.
Life full of constants instead of variables,
wishing to help but couldn't,
stretching out a hand in an effort to help
but only to pull back in the face of reality.
Shadows does not change their chracteristics,
their preferences,
and they will never die
until the will to live is lost.

Random statement: a dependable person is better than a depending person

A rather long and tiring day. Had a eyeful in today's GP lesson, i shall quote what tendou souji's grandma said men are supposed to be cool. Boiling water is nothing but vapour. Keep calm and think before making a nuisance out of yourself

Random idea: don't try to hide your thoughts, hiding sometimes make things more obvious

Music is my soul

Had my napha today, i would like to share my 2.4km run timing. I got 13.50 which is great improvement to my usual 18min+ timing. This improvement is due to firstly music and also my friends.Strange enough, during the run, i was blasting the music all the way but somehow i could hear their voices, the contents i shall not shared but after this incident i finally see the sense in what my JC1 civics tutors said, she said that the friends you made in JC would be the friends that will be with you for life or something like that. At that point in time, i totally disagree with her but now i understand already...

Random statement:don't let the music fade, keep the tune running

The day finally approaches... tomorrow is my napha and like what mr lee had said, my room for the extra 2 month government-funded vacation is reserved so is there any point in trying?

Today was a tiring day due to reasons i don't know as well. I just feel that the answer to the question that i had been so desperately searching for had been found but its not the answer i desired, felt so disappointed.Hopefully tomorrow will feel better, try to forget as soon as possible.

Random quote from my civics tutor mdm yang: I strongly believe in the present since the present determines the future.

Finally reach home at 9.45pm, student council investiture just ended 1hr ago(at the time of posting) it was so fun, first time see the council sing the school song so loud!

Anyway, i need to confess today. I realise i really got anger problem especially during afternoon when i feel like lashing out on someone and well, caryn was the target for today. Really sorry about that. Anyone got good anger mangement suggestion please leave a message at the tagboard thanks =D

Random question: what are friends to you? will you treat them as pawns/resources to attain your destiny or will you treat them like diamonds and cherish them for life?

"Friends" to me is just a word that people carelessly used nowadays so i shall define mine as true friends and as of 25th 2009, i had 4 true friends. So to them(if they visit my blog) thanks for being with me, time shared might be short and memories left behind might be painful but at the same time fun.

Didn't have time to post yesterday so i shall summarise yesterday events. Yesterday had extra lessons in the morning after which went to kiat's house for some competitive battling resulted in me losing though(ha..ha..ha). Anyway, the highlight was the dinner, we went to manhattan fish market for a sumptuous meal and we found the amazing fish and chips that was thought up by mel and kiat there!



The ultimate fish and chip made up of 1 anchovy and potato chips with a drop of curry! The picture above is a sample of the incomplete fish and chips =P

Random idea: even if the whole world stand against you, it is a must to believe in your own beliefs and walk your own path even if you have to carve the path yourself

Had a scary and wierd dream last night. i was ordering some meal in a fast food restaurant but the person gave me the wrong thing and when i pointed that to him, he just reply" ya i know" and after that i woke up =_= if dreams are a clue to the future then i might be falling into someone's trap soon.. oh well, you will never know until the time comes

Ok, i skipped school today for my NS medical check-up and i got a pes B >_> means cannot skip physical fitness test already. Anyway, the check-up was about 3 hours and i shall not go into the details but the most fun part was the vocational training which you just sit in front of a computer and answer question.

The rest of the day will be fun, peace and laughter =)

Random idea: sun and moon, life and death, happiness and saddness, love and hatred, both are incomplete without the other but humans have chosen to run from reality and to only yearn for the better instead of accepting both.

i shall blog on something more in-depth today instead of the usual on-goings.

Life to me is a song, there is always the starting to get the mood right before going to the chrous where the highlight is and comes the ending where i will start to hope that the song is longer but it will end somehow. To quote someone( can't remember who) there is no such things as a perfectly good thing as the saying goes, if it sounds too good to be true, it is not true. All good things will come to an end, be it life, relationship or just a simple song.

I do understand the on-goings of people's thoughts but there is a limit to how much i can do, sometimes all i can do is just watch and feel my heart in pain as i see the events unfold.

Random idea: life never ends as long as there is music but life ends the moment music is lost.

In a pretty bad mood, so better keep this post short before i complain too much

Today was my school's track and meet, had photography duty the whole morning, taking pictures, it was relatively fun if not for the blazing hot sun. Next, had AV duty in the afternoon, it was more of a slacking duty since they wasn't really prepared yet but still have to stay for monday duty 6pm to 9pm.

Ok, time for some complains... Sometimes being too nice isn't all that good, people will take your kindness for granted and even to the extent of ignoring you totally. Seriously, i don't know what to do with them, i should forgive them but some parts of me is saying that i should just do the same to them. "An eye for an eye" the perfect remedy.

Random idea: some things are as natural as the fish living in water but it does not give you the right to take advantage, they should be treasured instead.

A generally gloomy day, it didn't rain at all! The whole day was hot, hot and hot! especially during STAR, the aircon was down ~_~

This morning, someone unexpected appear in hall. She have been missing from the usual hang out place for quite some time, so i was kind of surprised to see her. Kind of ignore her when she was talking to me =X sorry jt

During chem lecture, the lecturer show the cohort some pictures of a horseshoe crab to explain some chemistry points. I kind of found the horseshoe crab cute but some people just disagree with me. Everyone have their differing views.

Quotes from others
weijia: To survive in this world, it is inevitable that all humans must lie

A seriously tiring day, lessons as per normal. Got quite abit of headache during afternoon must be due to physical activity >.>

Ah yes, today it rained! Singapore had been too hot for the past few days, the shower came at the right time.

Today was quite a lonely day also but i actually wanted it that way. I tried to pass today without any friends but its kind of hard after all but i have to get ready for the future...

A quote from tedou(a chracter from kamen rider kabuto)'s grandma: when people loves someone, they grow weak but that is not true weakness therefore there is nothing to be ashamed of.

Yesterday was quite a busy day, didn't have time to post at all so i will cramp everything in 1 post

Yesterday attended my school's college day. It was relatively entertaining, i got some new insights of the world, to quote one of the speaker "if you sow a thought, you reap an action, if you sow an action, you reap a chracter and when you sow a chracter, you reap your destiny" Thats all i could remember from the college day

Back to the present, spent the whole day, well to be exact, its half the morning and whole afternoon doing econs. 3 essays and 2 case-studys, scared the daylights out of me when i realised so much homework to do but still manage to overcome it..somehow...

Random thought: music is a way to express yourself, behind every choice of a favourite song is a story.

Today is a relatively short day since my school ended at 2.30pm. Wanted to stay and wait for caryn to have dinner but then realise i am out of money! @_@ thats the first time i am out of money, next time must plan ahead...

Anyway, something funny happen today. The scenerio was like this
Xinyi:" what am i supposed to write?"
Leonard: "happy birthday" in a relatively loud voice
Others:" leonard!!"
Leonard:" oh, you can write happy vesak day, happy national day etc etc etc"
i was laughing non-stop, its been awhile since i had a good laugh like that. Thank you leonard =)

And ya, today is malan's birthday, so happy birthday(even though you probably won't see this)

Had abit of thinking during the ride home, a close friend of mine jt once said " so i no longer want to run away but embrace every part of my life without fail and without regrets"
I think that i am able to do that at all, even though life is not only about pain but sometimes the pain is too much for the happiness to alleviate. At some points in time, i thought that she might understand me more than others but in the end i realise she cannot understand how i think also. Well, i am a complicated person after all =) but i still hope she will live up to what she said then i don't need to worry too much.

I found the latest hitman reborn opening full =D


Random idea: there is no such thing as obligation and duty, no one in the world owes someone else a living. Its best to treasure the close friends around you before its too late to save the relationship.

Today is a nice day, no emo-ing today!
Had lessons all the way until 1pm since my GP teacher was on mc today. Sometimes i rather she come, when she is on mc the workload compared to the days she is here for lessons is like the height of mountain comparing to the height of a small flat.

Had PE today, as usual 2.4km run then pull-up, the teacher mention that i must train harder for standing broad jump and pull-up. I still don't understand why i can't jump like all others, who knows when i will finally figure the trick ~_~

Received information from my CT that i had to go for college day on saturday... I didn't volunteer but i guess teachers don't really read properly =_= no more wordplay against teachers, its no fun at all

Qualifying test for chem, this test made me realise how much i really like organic chemistry, i was trembling with excitement while doing the paper. Its so fun! Well, it might be strange to get excited over such things but thats me =D

Random idea: a shadow can always imitate how a human looks like but it can not be a human and when the shadow realise this harsh reality, he will break down...

Pride
Greed,
Envy,
Wrath,
Lust,
Gluttony,
Sloth

The world's seven deadly sins, which is sins that you would commit most frequent?
For me, it would be envy.
I am always envious of how others are better in sports, studies or other forms of activities.
It does not just stop at that, sometimes i would think how is it that some people are closer compared to others and i am always envious of that close relationship people shared.

Sometimes when you discovered too much, the mystery deepens.
For my case, the more i know, the more painful it get...

You Are Peaceful and Content

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious.

You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination.

You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted.

First time blogging and the events today is already sad enough. What a nice way to celebrate the start of my blog..

Anyway, school stuff.... Had a really bad day, was feeling down the whole day due to some reasons. Vented my anger on a important friend, regretted that.....

Lessons as per normal, slept in lectures as usual~

Time for CCA, i didnt went for CCA, i was feeling abit moodless... Got scolded for missing a important briefing when i thought the briefing was on this friday instead ~_~

Thats the end for today

question: would anyone care if a tree disappears from a forest?