A wierd day today, since when did i become so close to my class? and sometimes its really annoying to be pair up with someone else like you like her etc etc, too much fun can be a problem too. Not that the girl is any bad but still, this kind of thing will harm relationships over time. Getting abit irritating

Anyway, today we went to marina barrage, the place is quite cool especially the gallery,i think i am to upload the photo once the toolbar for my blogger returns ~_~ After which is the long wait before the parent teacher meeting. During the wait, i was doing my tutorial when i realised what i know is not the level that i should know, it is not enough yet, have to work even harder...
And ya, the results are collected and i got 60 rank points in total, SA2 offically endded for me, time to work even harder for prelim.

Keep growing, to obtained what you want.
Keep walking without regrets, to never get hold back
Keep dreaming, to never lose sight of goals
Keep smiling, to never forget the happy moments
Keep feeling, to understand and never forget what is important
To never regret, to live life to the fullest

The world is made up of a bundle of perspectives. I found myself asking this question, what is actually the correct defintion of things, lets say a cat is an animal that has whiskers and well you know the general shape but is it really called a "cat", what makes the cat as we known as a "cat". Who actually created that name. If we extend this abit more, why are humans called "humans", a question that seemingly have no answer but perhaps lies in the religious sector which i didnt have the time to do any further research.

The ring of sky - The one that colors and engulfs everything and open to all things.The one to hold life together and create happiness

The ring of rain - The merciful shower that washes all away for the sake of other.

The ring of storm - The turbulent gale that fiercely blow,eager to be strong and reliable.

The ring of cloud - The drifting cloud that is never trapped by anyone and walks it own path,watching over other from a distance.

The ring of sun The orb of fire that brightens the great sky, a force that become reliable whenever needed.

The ring of mist - The illusion that prohibits knowledge of its true nature.

The ring of thunder - The thunder bolt that strikes a zealous blow.The one to withstand shock yet stay unmoved.

My favourite anime's theory of the world which i believe in. Every one in a group should belong to either of this category.
Anyway, thats all for today and as a last note, there is probably something serious mentioned with the briefing with the J1 repeats students, maybe of the lack of chances already i presume. Hopefully, this will not be too stressful for you, Quote of the day: as long as you do your best, nothing bad will happen for god will reward those that are deserving.

First day of the collapsed timetable. My offical lessons ended at 1pm today but it was just an illusion!! Everything ended at 4pm which is quite lucky already. Tomorrow and the following few days are going to end at 6pm. Anyway, today was relatively interesting, this is my first time having 5 hours lesson straight with no lunch at all. i should correct it, its more like 8 hours straight considering the canteen at 1pm is packed with humans and i only grab some bread to eat.

Oh ya, i am proud of myself today =) i actually did physics tutorial(lol), i rarely do physics so ya quite an acheivement.

If anyone noticed that today was kind of windy during late afternoon around 4+, the wind is strong and i spotted a number of interesting patterns of the cloud, i even spotted 1 that looked like reborn XD. The wind felt great, i really wish everyday could be like that.. haha...

Thats about it for today, i think i am going to formulate a story soon. Anyone got any suggestions for title?(i will just mixed everything in)

Thanks mel and kiat for those words of encouragement. I guess i will do my best hopefully i wont regret the results. Anyway i have been doing alot more thinking lately. Maybe the reason i cant seem to concentrate is that i still cant accept myself. I accepted the world for what it is worth, i accepted my friends for their strengths and weakness, i accepted the friendship that the common man defined as such and i tried to accept my failures as a normal human. In all my close to 2 years in JC, i learn alot more things and most importantly critical thought.

I hated humans for reasons that they are weak or what but the reason that they are not living to their true potential, if we think about it. Humans are borned with nothing that is seriously intimidating unlike other creatures such as the lion with its claws but we have something call common sense and the ablity to learn and apply. To me, manipulation far exceeds everything in this world, to make whats not yours, yours.

I had long ago admired people that are orginally weak but are spritually strong, they are able to accept themselves for what they truly are although they sometimes put on a mask to themselves. The light and the dark, when you are truly able to grasp this both sides of yourself, true strength will be granted.

Thoughts for today: Everything has its assigned role in this world, if you already have the friends that would grant you the things you needed in this world, i believed what i have been thinking and doing is foolish, useless. My existence to you is nothing, no words is required. I walk my own path and you your own, our paths might intersect one day, at that point in time, will you become the passing breeze or ......

With all the rapid changes around me, i find that i finally cannot take it anymore. The change in timetable is really affecting me to the extreme that i cant even seem to concentrate on stuff. Besides that, i found that upon doing the worksheets for revision for maths, i am not worthy of being in the STAR 3 group, my maths is really cannot make it.. especially pure maths. out of 17 questions, i only know how to do 1

Nice 1 lor, i am really epic useless sia, epic noob

Rain, the seemingly endless fall of water
The soothing breeze that accompany it
calms the raging soul
as if to say everything is fine
The lightning that strikes
fascinates and grants false hope
that light will even exists in darkness
Gazing upon the dark sky,
the rain falls,
is it rain or tears streaming down your face
The touch of rain
proves the existence of life
The sound of it pouring down
provide the illusionary endless tune
The aftermath of rain
shows the bridge to a better tomorrow
The merciful rain that washes away everything
for the sake of others.
Always have been
Always will be

Random quote of the day: there is nothing as absurd as being borned into this world to be alone.

The week is coming to an end, and i just want to reflect about the events this week. Had a really busy week with all the revision package thrown at us JC2 piling my table with a mountain-like garbage heap leaving my DS hanging in the middle(i think). Finishing the tutorial in a short time while absorbing every little details that the teachers have been harping on and to find time out of lunch break to consult teachers on subjects. Having emotional problem as usual again( i wonder why..), have been trying to stay out of the danger zone but there is no point in doing so, i guess the best way is still to avoid the topic until everything turns to dust. After all, what you don't know cant harm you.

I am extremely tired from rushing around, mugging, forcing my brain to overwork and emo-ing(heck i was even sick today because of that) but still in the deepest pits where light are expected not to reach, there is still glimpse of hope. I am thankful for enriching experiences this whole week, be it good or bad, it will prepare me for the future. Maybe it will sound wierd but i am gratful that tomorrow had came, a whole new possiblities although what i hoped will happen is seemingly 0%, i guess i will have to travel home alone from now on... Oh well, you reap what you sow

Thoughts for today: extreme tiredness... i have to start being more specific even my GP tutor are saying i am vague >_<

JT, if you are prepared for it then do what you believe is right. As for me, i will hold to my beliefs that no one in this world is perfectly sincere all the time, to everyone or doing anything. Its not possible for anyone to be real all the time and without the mask.

Having said that, i confessed. I am not one to talk about sincere since i am not the kind of person who treats everyone equally. I do not believe in no discrimination at all, its human nature to differentiate things. But still, in certain situations and to certain people, i am still sincere in what i say and what i do, its just whether the person could even figure it out or not. After all, everything will depend on your perspection.

Anyway, there is supposed to have a solar eclipse today. And IT JUST HAVE TO RAIN ~_~, darn it. But still as a result, the weather is pretty cooling and i am gratful for that. Finally something interesting is to happen in my mundane life and it got screwed up. Haiz, the world is never what you hope for it to be

Nothing in this world is absolute. There is no right or wrong, everything depends on the perspective. What the world deems as the truth is nothing but the "truth" that everyone had so happen agreed on. If there is an absolute truth, an absolute code of conduct, why is it humans change? Why do they sometimes change for the better or for the worse? Why so then that textbooks, people of authority are regularly changed? Answer me..



This anime will tell you my reasons for thinking that way.

Nothing need to be said, the song will speak for me

Above is the new opening of FMA(full metal alchemist), i just want to know what your views are... this song is kind of soothing and at the same time rock to me? I know its kind of wierd thats why i am seeking a different view..

To kiat and mel: EH, i seriously think you two nothing to do sia... exploring singapore...... How many security guards do you intend to inquire this time? =____________=

Bored...bored..bored... thats what i am feeling the whole of today...
Well, the latest hitman reborn episode kind of cleared my boredom for a hour or so, the new episode is pretty interesting, i cant wait for the next when tsuna starts the archbaleno trials.

After that, i attempted to sleep for awhile before starting my revision which until now i still have not started.. ( maybe later). Oh ya, i am kind of hooked up on Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuuutsu aka melancholy of haruhi suzumiya. The story is kind of funny and i guess the chracter haruhi is cute and all =D. I am so going to buy the whole set of the manga.

I think i am starting to believe abit in the existence of god, i guess when i grow older, my thinking changes. I realise that there is nothing random in this world, human actions can never be described as random, it is always a case of cause and effect. I guess with the world on the brink of destruction(perhaps), i cant help but believe in miracles, i happen to feel some kind of attachment to this world and i really hope that this world would not end anytime soon.

I prayed that this world would be saved and above all, i prayed that my friends would be safe and that god would grant them strength to stand up no matter what. Hopefully, they will one day understand their destiny

Just enjoy the music( lyrics might not be accurate 100%)




I run past others with a parched heart.
Sorry, I can't do anything.
You won't even let me
Share our pain together.

To live on without tarnish,
I face your back and head out without looking back
On the lonely rail

I will follow you.
No matter how agonizing the world is,
You will shine even in it's darkest corners.
Cross over the end of the future,
My weakness will not shatter my spirit.
My way is overlapping with yours.
For the two of us, God bless...

This warming affection that reaches me,
It melts my reality and roams my heart.
I don't need a reason for wanting to meet you,
Just my overflowing feelings, Lovin' you

For now, let's paint a beautiful dream
And chase after
For your lonely heart

Stop it, it's not like you to lie.
Look at my eyes and let's talk about our future.
I am prepared,
Even if the future is bleak,
I might be able to change destiny if I become stronger.
But for my wish to come true,
Everything is God knows...

You are here, I am here.
Everyone else has disappeared.
While we paint the beauty of this fleeting dream,
We trace out the lines of our scars.

That's why I will follow you.
No matter how agonizing the world is,
You will shine even in it's darkest corners.
Cross over the end of the future,
My weakness will not shatter my spirit.
My way is overlapping with yours.
For the two of us, God bless...

I am dead tired... After a long day of lessons until 4pm, i had maths practise paper from 5pm to 6.30pm which apparently i screwed it upside down, left right etc etc... well, you get the point. Anyway, its really tiring... I still don't understand why the school must put the paper at such timeslot, are we lacking that much time that we have to use such a late timeslot for practise paper? The practise paper is not even a clear indication of our capablity, seeing how so many people are plain tired and just given up on the paper already.

More depressing news today, i got back my GP results and well its 40+ again.. But it was 45, a 2 marks difference from my SA1 results of 47... its damn depressing, maybe hardwork just isn't = results, i am so tired of testing out new style that i just want to give up on the subject, give up on life, just bloody give up on everything. Sometimes, it feel like there is no point in life but at points in life, i feel that its meaningful. Yea, its contradicting i know but hey, life is meant to be like that.

Thoughts for today: illusions are deluding my senses, i have grown weak with the notion of friends, grown comfortable with their presence, grown to rely on them, grown to adore them but its time... its time.... to awaken the me that have lied dormant, the lonely me that likes nothing but to keep to himself with only the music that signify my emotions as the only comfort in life...

yesterday, i went out with mel and kiats to watch 20th century boys 2. It was quite an interesting movie, i will be talking about it later but first, lets just go into the events before the movie. We met at kiat's house at 1+pm then mel and kiat went on their quest to conquer the battle tower again... while watching kamen rider(china version) while me being a busy little kid in a boring JC life, sit there and do my endless pile of tutorials.....

At 3pm, we left for DB only to find out the seats for the 4.30 slot are mostly taken and the remaining seats are front seats so we decided to go for 7.30 show instead and with the 3hr+ free time, we went to hunt for Teochew building. It was a funny trip, mel was acting like some captain of a squad to acheive our mission objective and we spent about 20mins reaching the place while asking for help from 2 security guards and on the back trip, we realise we walk 1 big round to reach that place when we can reach there in 5 to 8mins time.

Mel and kiat doing the cool guy pose


Mel and kiat in front of a church( i forget the name ~_~ sorry)


Ok, now for the movie comments. Generally, the story is pretty nice, the effects and the idea are good and there are funny parts too especially there is one part where Kanna's classmate saw the face of a student.

Man... i woke up at 5+ today because of a dumb nightmare.... the scenerio was like i was in just deserted graveyard or classroom( cant rmb which) anyway, there were this tombstones/tables that can transform( this is what you get when you think too much about transformers ~_~), they were having war inside it. I dont know why and i am very certain that i wont do it in reality if it ever happen, i walk into the middle of the battle and say" hey stop stop"... the rest were pretty fuzzy after that, but i remember something like getting shot while protecting someone or something... everything is fuzzy ~_~

Since i am wide awake now, might as well do something and i visited my school anime RECOMMENDATION forum, i bold and caps the words for a reason. I am freaking pissed off since i am those kind that believe an action always has a reason, and this capping of that word is not done by me but rather was directed at me to emphasize on its recommendation instead of plot discussion. Ok lar, i am always wrong, might as well just leave the forum totally. waste time, shorten my lifespan and have to put up with insentitive remarks... Nice way to start the day feeling angry

For those have updated themselves on naruto and bleach, you would understand what i am saying here.

Ok, firstly, naruto, the most significant part in the latest chapter 455 would be the fact that danzo has the sharingan... Seriously, i am suspecting some plot hole here or otherwise i am going to interpret this as danzo = mandara which i seriously hope that its not true. Madara is like a battle sage that lives so long, a proud owner of the uchiha blood and sharingan and ends up being a freaking old man with a bandage over his eye and a bastard attiude??? Hell if i going to admit that.

Bleach, vizards are finally fightning and the latest chapter was spent on talking again.... Ok, so i will kind of look forward to next week chapter 366 which hopefully will involve some cool fighting instead of the usual talking. And maybe show the captain's bankai, that will be interesting enough =)

Thoughts for today: If nothing is known, nothing can be done, will humans be better off with or without help. Nothing can be done if you lost faith in yourself, i pray that you will always be able to stand up on your own

A theme song from megaman starforce (DS game), there are still things in games that can be learned and sometimes its overlaps with your actions





Anyway, heres the lyrics
♫"Shooting Star"♫

On both the Wave Road
And in the Real World
I looked up at the sky
And I felt so alone
I wanted a connection
But I didn't really try

I was afraid to be lied to
So I never got close
I buried away the loneliness
deep down inside
And I just kept on singing

Until starlight shined on me
And touched my heart
It was the day that I met you
That our link was discovered
You found me at my worst

Shooting Star♪
You guide me in the dark

Your smile gives me hope
I'm not afraid of anything
I'll keep looking to the sky
Grasping for light
Your smile fills my heart

Shooting Star♪
You guide me in the dark

Had a really long day today due to the extra lessons that lasted up till 6.30pm(although it should be 7pm) anyway i shall just summarise some of the funny parts for today.

The most significant thing ever happen today is that ms khoo, my chem lecturer said that"due N1H1 that we have to practise social distancing....." the funny word is in bold. Anyway, a delicious food is never complete without some spices and my friend, leonard added" no wonder, she can come back to school, since she go to the doctor and ask if she got N1H1 instead of H1N1" That part was really funny to me, imagine something like that happen in reality.

Enough of the funny stuffs, i will get onto abit more serious things that happen today. I got back my maths results and i got a 75/100 which is a A but to me, its way below my expected score since i was expected a 80+ this time. Xinyi even congratz me on that but i was feeling abit disappointed with the scores so i didnt reply her(sorry xinyi!) not to sound all high and mighty but i seriously think that 75 is not good enough since the paper was relatively easy and i am really setting high standards for myself already since its this close to A levels. Time to buck up! and watch anime as well =)

Thoughts for today: I will grab your hand and never let go until i can pull you out of the darkness, no matter what i will fulfill this even at the cost of my life ever since i realise there is no point in living for myself. A shadow will always support his master.

After mugging the whole weekend, i realise that its pointless to continue with physics revision when i don't freaking understand superposition at all ~_~ i am so gonna pester mr yeow this coming friday after physics lesson. Seriously, after thinking about it, i am truly envious of those that are able to understand things at first glance, the so-called genius but hey, like what my chinese teacher once said, if you are not a genius, just work harder to acheive the same result as them.

Oh ya, this morning when i woke up, i was faced with a horrible reality... Its time to hand in GP file... OMGOSH, there are supposed to have at least 40 essay outline in it and my current essay outlines to date in the file is like 0? GG already but still i am going to try my best no matter what.

I also found out why the rain is so soothing to me, the rain brings about the dark sky that i like and whats more, there is always something to look forward to after the rain somehow... maybe its just my imagination but the sky after the rain is always so beautiful =)

Thoughts for today: let it out, let it rain, vent your anger and it will be ok, the treasure that came after a ordeal is the best for it is through your own powers that you are able to obtain it. May the merciful rain wash away the sadness of this world

Yo, just finish watching the movie revenge of the fallen aka transformers movie 2.
Seriously, the movie is nice despite what the ratings are. The fight of autobots and Decepticons had an additional story which the story of primes, the 7 leaders of their planet. "The fallen" is a name given to the prime that had decided to go against their code of conduct. The battle started when the fallen wanted to obtain the energy source from earth to continue their species' existence.

Ok, enough of the summary of the movie. Lets talk about the highlights. , the sense of humour in the movie is fairly interesting, they added the recent ongoings in the world like swine flu and the new elected president Obama into the movie in a way to add on to the humourous part of the movie.

Lets move on to the more interesting stuff said in the movie, like what my friend mel said, this movie had alot of hidden meaning. Interesting quotes like " as long as our history are known, we will continue to live on in their hearts"

But the most significant phrase to me is that "the Matrix of leadership is not to be found, it is to be earned", to me its like, importants things in life cannot be found, it can only be earned through our own efforts =) For that, i will keep on doing what i want to do and continue to pray for them, one day, hopefully, i will earn my place in their hearts.

Had my last paper physics today, my last and worse paper done ever... I had so many blanks that i was scolding myself all the way back home, i can't believe i didn't know so much, is the questions getting harder or is it i am getting weaker? I seriously hate this, my As are coming, i am getting more and more worked up. Physics a subject that i really couldn't care less about is making me nervous, does that show anything? Fear and disappointment are two feelings that keep surrounding me, why can't my parents and my friends said those words that i really want to care... why!? No one understands me, no one cares, just let me fall into pit of darkness and never see daylight again, its better this way, what i don't know wont harm me at all...

A personality test from this website http://www.mypersonality.info/personality-types/

Heres my result,
ISTJ - The "Examiner"

ISTJs are responsible, loyal and hard working. They have an acute sense of right and wrong and work hard at preserving established norms and traditions. Because of their deep sense of duty they are dedicated to everything they do and are very dependable. ISTJs care deeply for those closest to them.

Not that we can trust this kind of results totally but it still provides a more accurate view of ourself and at least let us have a feel of what we are.
Ok, time to study, last paper tomorrow!

Thoughts for today: nothing will last forever, bonds might grow weak by the day, why am i so afraid of the future... The answer lies in the previous sentence.