2 more weeks left to POP, booking in soon for 1 week of rest and relaxation.
The true terror- 24km is coming in 2 weeks time as well, hope my leg will recover for that.I have been learning alot, route marches are a test of endurance.

Just keep going in life, dont stop, dont slow down is what we ultimately gain from route march, sometimes i wish i can kick start and continue down that path but i still cant gather the courage to do so

POP 8th april!!!

My Silky Love, all the while, for 24 hours
My Silky Love, every time when I think of you
My Silky Love, my irritating feelings
My Silky Love, simply overflow
Even though it's easy to say �eI love you'
When you come in front of me
My personality arises and interferes with me
If it's the usual, I can go on boldly
Even though that's my personality
No matter how hard I try, I can't tear down the wall
I want you to realize...my feelings
So I always send a gaze
Of,"I really love you," at you
With my greatest courage!
When I met you, I finally noticed
My flimsy silky heart
Even if I was awkward at love
The scar of romance that I almost forgot about
Suddenly started to hurt with a twinge
If I don't say I love you myself
Someday...I'll become weaker than I am now
If I say 'I love you', then I can be at ease
The truth is, even though I know that
When I sound it out, you seem to leave me
I wonder, what do you think
Of me?
At our current distance we're merely friends, right?
I just might be whitewashing it
But I don't want to get hurt, it's just that alone
Or so I persuaded myself
And I just ran away
If my flimsy silky heart
Gets hurt this time, then I'm sure
I won't be able to love anyone ever again
The splitting sound that echoes in my chest
Is at the bottom of my memories, I'm sure
The sewing kit that I forgot to put away
On that day should be around somewhere
All the while, for 24 hours
My Silky Love, every time when I think of you
My Silky Love, my irritating feelings
My Silky Love, simply overflow
My Silky Love, all the while, for 24 hours
My Silky Love, every time when I think of you

One fine day when i just got back from camp, had a nice bath and planning to enjoy my gaming session later only to find out my acc got restricted cos they were planning to put all SEA players to SEA servers ~_~

Currently, sitting around aimlessly with my laptop in front visiting random websites, looking at JT blog over and over again. Goddamm bored.... few more hours to book in for field training again. This time round, it will be even tougher than field camp? Perhaps, hopefully can tahan. Still wish could get some encouragement before i book in tml sia...

hais... 4 more weeks and we will be through~

Damm bored sia, booking in later again. Have to face my worst nightmare this week, i just hope can improve. Given up on passing IPPT already, my officer was right. The flame will disappear after awhile, i had no motivation left for me to push on, what am i doing, why am i doing this. These are the questions that pass through my mind but i had no answers to them, even with education or even with life, i had no idea what to do. To change the world? Or just to survive?

For what do we live for,
For whom do we keep going for,
Questions with no answers.
I want to keep going on for her,
but what kind of world does she desire?

I realize the screaming pain
Hearing it loud in my brain
But I'm going to go straight ahead with the scar
It's fine if you forget, it's fine if you can't feel it
I've patched up the scrapes in my heart
It's okay if I'm hurt, because I no longer feel the pain
Even as I drag my feet along
I can no longer see
The self
That made a sound
and then collapsed
If you just notice the sound of the wind...
It told me to follow these scars
Before I'd be crushed by the weight of the world
Can you remember it? The sky of tears...
That pain has given you protection
Because this pain will always protect you
More than the strength of being unhurt, the kindness that cannot hurt
Its voice in some ways, seems sad
Just like
Unbuttoning a button
Our hearts and bodies
Were separated
Once again, catch your heart...
It told me to follow these scars
Before I'd be crushed by the weight of the world
Can you remember it? The sky of tears...
That pain has given you protection
Because this pain will always protect you
I found it
That teary voice
There's no mistake
It's my own
All of it was for this moment...
I'm sure that from the beginning, you knew
I was the only one who wouldn't leave you again
I was told to follow these scars
And then there wouldn't be anything to be afraid of...
Don't forget it, your reason for smiling...
That pain has given you protection
That pain has given you protection

GOt my A level results today, cant say i am pleased and cant say i am disappointed totally. Some subjects are disappointing like my chem having just a C while my econs got A which is unexpected totally. Now have to spend time thinking where to go, i am putting my bets on science course or econs course since i like to speculate alot and knowing how the world will turn out interest me alot.

Finally got chance to talk to her after not seeing her for like 3 to 5 months. Her looks have changed, lucky that i have to take my results or else i doubt i could ever see her. Yes, you people would just ask why dont i just ask her out, my reply would be how would i be able to find the courage to do so, in any case, talking to her for 45mins made me feel quite happy liao =)

Have to go to the sea later and confess for bringing something out. Hopefully, will get guard duty some other time.

If u are looking at this post, i must tell how happy i am to even touch my laptop now.My field camp is finally over!!! Its damm tiring, the heat is killing everyone in the company. In the first day, alot of people already fall out from activities but no one fall out back to coy line though.

We just keep practising the stuff we learn before just that there are tests and have additional stuff.In the end, hurt myself quite bad, bruises everywhere, sandfly bites, heat rashes~

time to go play abit~~~~~