2 more weeks left before the course is over and also the countdown to the dreaded outfield begins... Finally i am able to wear the dumb thing for a longer period of time but somehow the low level fatigue equipments prove to be hardest for me to be in, walking 4km in that almost make me go crazy. Panic mode slowly seep in but still manage to complete it somehow but still how long can I last in that. There is still the offical test with 4km march and a 2km run... haiz.... please give me strength to overcome it...

I wonder how she is doing, mid year for J2 should be coming soon or ended already(cant rmb the dates for exams already). Hope she is doing well and hanging on =)

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me goin crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance

Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me goin crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

going into the 5th week of my course, teletubby suit is freaking hot but anyway manage to stay inside for awhile until my aircon broke down. More will come and soon the dreaded outfield, damm sian but have to try harder...

If there is one supernatural ablity that could be granted, i would choose mind read, sometimes i wonder what she is thinking and what she is feeling, the short time spent is already in the past, our paths might not even cross again... fear everything and regret what i have not done but time will be keep going. Time is one thing that will keep going forward regardless of what, i never want to let go of you if i am able to catch hold of you again... For that day i wait and pray for i have no idea what else can be done.

haiz, 4 weeks into the course and i finally got used to my platoon mates. They are a bunch of interesting people and i swear to god that if possible i would like to continue my remaining serving term with them but my phobia of mask somehow is a hindrance, its hard to overcome this... tml will be going to MMI for medical appointment which hopefully they can cure me somehow or i will finally get OOC... too much problems.

On a brighter note, went out with friends yesterday, badminton with kiat and mel which end up as usual a laughing session without much training but still enjoyable. After which, had an enjoyable dinner with juen tein and the rest then after that rushign to play mahjoing at caryn's house. Kind of regretted not being able to go home with her, got alot of things that i want to talk about but somehow always get tongue-tied when i am with her, troublesome eh.

Anyway, there goes my weekend and next weekend will be burn with NDP and stuff, haiz haiz, sian sia, the remaining fire of hope, how long will it burn

sian, book in later again. same old feeling over and over again just that this week will be slightly more dangerous and stressing... received my medical appointment date for my mask phobia, its on 17th may which is like 1 week from now? i want to faster verify my problem sia.... either way is just sian sian. i wonder how she is doing, no post in facebook, no post in blog, i dont dare to sms her since its like an important year for her, haiz haiz, wish i can get some news that she is doing fine