Enough of being depressed over stuff. I had been emoing over the fact that I have no team but my sgt told me something interesting. To quote, no team doesnt mean you are going to get kick out of camp lar, just show that you can do the job better than someone else and you will get a place.
Interesting huh, i have to keep focusing on the training and maybe show the sgt that despite my phobia of mask, i can still perform my task...

There is still one person that had stand by me through out my NS life, maybe its just pointless to ramble on without taking any actions. What YK lim say is true, I should take some action but I am always afraid that the status quo cannot be maintained. What if we can no longer be friends? That would be alot worse and to be honest, i am quite sure that she wont even like me so... this is what i had decided...
To make sure i will never go back on my word, i posted on my blog and later on will on facebook.
" I hereby declare that "she" will always be my friend, a close friend perhaps if permitted and I will not harbour wierd feelings towards her"