A long weekend for the newly passed out CBRD combat enginner to rest. After 8 weeks worth of pain and suffering(literally), we finally got our badge... One problem solved, one more problem coming up... Had an x-ray for my leg and to discover something wrong with it, the MO say that if i keep overworking my leg, i might not even be able to straighten it anymore aka unable to walk... Retarded huh, chiong so hard only to receive this news, its like wtf...

My only reason, my only resolve continuing believing in NS is only that I could live up to her expectations, she had been my only pillar of support since i enter that hellish place 6 months ago... Now i cant even live up to her expectations, although I didnt want to trouble her any further but ironically i am writing all this stuff on my blog, I just need to release some stress... Someone once said, if you are afraid then just rush through it, if you are feeling worried just let it out, throw the burden somewhere, anywhere that is not in your heart...

Haiz... really depressing, doubt I will talk to her for awhile since I cant even face her with these stupid failure me...