An early bookout due to us having a mini rest on a friday. A bonding session would be appropriate description for it. Starting to get busy again soon, i wonder which weeks i prefer but i guess its no difference to me. This whole week passes in a flash, i cant really remember what i have been doing. The only thing i remember is wednesday night which is lunar festival( i think), kind of regret not msging her... No point thinking too much...

I had a dream in camp, i cant remember the details exactly but i only remember i woke up with tears in my eyes(not exactly crying) and my heart aches alot. The whole picture is that, she left and disappear without a trace and before that she said something to me which i cant remember and i woke up after that... I really hate dreaming, the last time i dreamt it became real, if the same thing happens... i dont know what to do anymore...

Last thing, in camp, one of my bunkmates asked me if i dont train myself, what about my future girlfriend, that set my mind into motion. I came to a conclusion, love and relationships are privileges left to the worthy, people that are kind and nice. People like me with darkness in the heart has no place for that, emotions are there but just that they will never be used... Whatever i say now, i might not follow through in the future not that i care, i will live my life as what i want, things happen for a reason, the link among them is the road to the future and destiny...