No idea how to name this post but ya this post is an answer to you. Perhaps, i might be mistaken the recepient of your post for me, if it is, i believe this post might not be of any use but regardless still...

Friendship to me is something wierd, at times it can be a boon or a burden. It is because of this bond that is shared that things are seen in a different light.
This bond is perhaps fragile but it is afterall something that will in the end shape your perspective, are we to blame a friend for any mistakes when we as friends didnt manage to notice anything and correct them. Of course, you will feel warm and fuzzy when your friends care about you but at the same time, you will feel sad when they are hurt or in trouble, how heavy is this burden? This weight of emotions?

Humans just cant see things that are close to them, precious things might be overlooked with just a glance at the daily happenings. Even so, i believe one day someone(not me) will be able to surpass this flaw.

Of course i will miss you,
for as long as my soul is still lit,
i will never forget you and the fun times in the past,
this is a fact that has been and will be true

Alone is the best way to retreat,
i am not ready to forgive myself for all the sins i have done,
i have no right to do forgive myself,
i am still a coward, no guts to face the world
to carry the burden of sin.

No longer in denial, i know myself, time isnt right or maybe never will be
but still, i only hope for all the small tiny good things i have done, it can be used to help others... I only hope for people i care to be happy that is all, perhaps i will complain that my life is bad but still deep under i know i am contented.

I once told her: I am a shadow, shadow fade away after the master no longer needs it,
only purpose in the world is to help and that is perhaps my task that i am created for.

I know you care but its alright, i would rather the effort be used for yourself and to be happy that will be nice. =)