Well, the previous few posts are always on a short week but this time is on a particularly long week since i had duty until saturday morning. Had IPPT this week and finally... finally... pass it!!! I cant imagine how happy i was at that moment when my sgt told me i pass, now i already prove to myself that its possible. I can go for my surgery in peace, just need to train back my body if possible after the surgery.

I think A levels are over isnt it or maybe left that annoying physics MCQ that is going to happen after 1 week the major papers are over. I guess the final link soon to be gone, memories will fade away soon enough, guess thats enough though. Had lots of fun in the past, its time for dreams to move on to being someone elses dream...

Forgive, forget, forward... Forget to give my feelings, forget whatever regrets that is left, moving forward, not to look back

If everything happens is fated to happen, what is the underlying meaning of each actions. A person proclaims that he is smart, what does he want? To be known? To show how smart he is? On the other side of the coin, he could be offering his help with his vast knowledge.

The world is of 2 sides so is humans, our thinking are of 2 sides of a coin, positive and negative but it is easily overlooked especially the positive. Why? I have no idea but this is what make thoughts interesting. Is power the strongest ablity to have in this world? I would say no, knowledge is the strongest. The power of manipulation

We think what we think but is it the truth, our view never to be full, bended to a side, subjected to viewing the world in tinted lens. Is the world we known our "world", could it just be similar to a hamsters in a cage where we are the hamsters and the world is just a giant cage, "weathers" to be inserted by whoever is up there as and when they please. Interesting i believe, next time when you pass by a pet shop, think of this and think further... What is world

Camp is getting more and more screwed up, i have no idea what to say anymore except that humans have no chance in surviving... its a disgrace to be of this race, intelligent yet selfish, no hope at all.

Fading shall began soon, recreation of memories shall stop the raging heart, determined yet easily sway even so, my stand is as such, will and must try to accomplish. The wandering traveller shall have its rest, seated upon the frozen skies... to be perfect once again... perfectly dark

A totally unplan post... anyway, kind of got scolded yesterday by someone, guess she finally got tired of me emoing huh. Haiz, but really the world is this tiring what can i do... Maybe the nightmare is going to come true because of my own action, a self fulfilling prophecy... No idea if thats going to happen, even if it is, what can i do. I might have given up on this world and myself already but i think maybe i should give it another chance, try again one more time... wonder if i can do it...

Last 2 days before A levels, wanted so hard to pray for her but i dont think god will listen to someone that is inconsistent and only pray when there is a favour to be asked. Argh, i feel so hypocritical...

In any case, time doesnt wait and in 2 days time, the final challenge shall start. Prayers and wishes might not be of use, but still will keep on praying and hoping. I just want to say i believe in you, see you in uni soon

Tiring week seriously with all the pressure put on my IPPT results and also with the changes.
Changes might not be significant soon when the department is changed but the bottomline is whereever you go, the higher up only care about results, the progress? is just nothing to them. Dunno how much i can push myself until my body breaks but well... thats is something that i have to do...

A dream... its been awhile since i last had it, in my case perhaps it is a nightmare.
Somehow, i cant remember much of the dream except that it has "her" in it, the only feeling i get from it is saddness and i woke up with my eyes damp... Calling out to the dark thats all i remember before i am awoken... Dreams are sometimes better off forgotten as it is how nature decides it...