A totally unplan post... anyway, kind of got scolded yesterday by someone, guess she finally got tired of me emoing huh. Haiz, but really the world is this tiring what can i do... Maybe the nightmare is going to come true because of my own action, a self fulfilling prophecy... No idea if thats going to happen, even if it is, what can i do. I might have given up on this world and myself already but i think maybe i should give it another chance, try again one more time... wonder if i can do it...

Last 2 days before A levels, wanted so hard to pray for her but i dont think god will listen to someone that is inconsistent and only pray when there is a favour to be asked. Argh, i feel so hypocritical...

In any case, time doesnt wait and in 2 days time, the final challenge shall start. Prayers and wishes might not be of use, but still will keep on praying and hoping. I just want to say i believe in you, see you in uni soon