After christmas comes new year, decemember is really a relaxing month. I guess its to reward everyone for working so hard in 2010. My week in camp was just admin stuff, cleaning up rifles, getting ready to move. To be honest, i really prefer my current company, the superiors are nice and i kind of like the idea of the only platoon in the company. We finally got used to our team coms and force coms but they are changing soon. It just feels kind of sad...

Last day of 2010, wonder whats everyone doing. For my case, i am gonna rot at home until 7+, heading out to my friend house for countdown. Although, the person i wish to see aint coming but still, have to go. One thing i learn from my life is that no matter when, what or where, a mask must always be prepared. I am not ready to let anyone see the real me yet, i doubt anyone i know understand me. Not going to care anymore, heres my new year wishes. For 2 person dear to me, my onee-san and my crush, i wish for them to be happy in the following years. For my friends, i wish they will keep being able to do what they like and be happy as well..

As for my new year resolution, to become stronger mentally and physically. To create this ice cold heart that will not falter in extreme situations.

In the end, my xmas wish didnt come true... haha XD

its christmas!!!

Been a year since i entered NS, i still remember last year i was botak and just enlisted, complaining about NS but now i got my hair back =)
One year soldier, nothing much have changed, perhaps i am more willing to accept the fact that we need to serve NS. Military strength is always important especially with the tension between countries.

Was listening to the last christmas song, i think songs normally picture things perfectly or extremely. Its nice to be in a relationship but i think i will never get to that point until i can change myself. I am a sarcastic person through and through, if you dare to disturb me, i will make sure you receive it back tenfolds.
One thing i still cant do is to forgive myself, i watch anime and perhaps receive some of their resolves in life. To kill someone, you must be ready to be killed, its my theory in life, whatever you expect of someone, are you capable of the same standard? if not, you can just keep quiet...

Shes perfect to me while i am just a normal guy that have sin millions of time since the day i was created. Who am I to say that i like her? This kind of thing is better to fade away into the wind, this kind of person should just fade into the shadows, this kind of life is better use to help others instead for yourself...

A late post for japan trip, came back on the 16th dec but kind of lazy to update until now. On paper, my trip lasts 6 days but in actual fact its only 4 days since the first and last day is for arriving and departure only.

1st day: temple visits and some government building

the temple looks interesting with the guardians at the gate, kind of remind me of singapore's temple. There was this charm thing that i wanted to buy for others but then again, i dun tink they will understand so no point thus out goes the idea. Didnt go inside to pray cos too troublesome, need to wash hands and mouth with the water they provide there, lazy = no fun ^^

Next, we went to the government building, there are alot of historical stuff there but there is not the main point(even though its stated to be the highlight of the trip there), the main thing was the scenery. If i nvr rmb wrongly, we were at 45 or 47 floor, the view from the top is nice and just nice it was close to night time, it was really beautiful.

After that, we went for dinner, its called shabu-shabu. Basically, its japanese steamboat, just that the whole meal there was only with beef and wild veg O_O
I think japanese people just like veg too much, not my style totally >_<

2nd day: tokyo disneyland and dinner at hotel near mt fuji and hot spring ^^

ok... to be honest, i wasnt particularly excited with disneyland perhaps if you ask me to go to some anime land, it wont be that case but oh well. Anyway, disneyland is as what most people imagine, full of disney characters. We went for rides like jungle tour, some ship, nightmare before christmas and pirates of the carribbean ride( since when are they part of disney?), the people in charge of the rides are extremely friendly to the point that i had no idea how to react to them, alot of times, i just keep quiet. Compared to singapore, they are alot nicer. Ah yes, mel and kiat actually went for the horse ride which i think is called merry go round? They were the only 2 on it without any kids =_= That day was really cold with the raining pouring down and stuff but fun still.

The hotel dinner was a i have no idea type of meal but its really a feast, there was this boat like thing with lots of sashimi on it, had like tuna, salmon, squid, tako, scallop and other wierd wierd stuff. It was really filling, cant even finish my food...

Ah yes, the final part was hot spring, it was damm shiok. The warmth was very relaxing but it either my imagination or i soaked too long to the point that i was letting out steam from my body, wierd lol. Anyway, kiat did take photos of the hot spring(with no one inside of cos) so i guess i will ask him to upload the pics to facebook or something. Yukata is also hard to wear, maybe it just feel unnatural. Thats the end of 2nd day, trip is halfway over T_T

3rd day: mt fuji, mt hakone
According to the weather report, we wasnt able to go up mt fuji cos it might be dangerous but when we reach the main entrance, we received news that we can go up to the 5th station, i was quite excited but seriously... lol
The moment we reach that, we alighted and i wanted to go back up. It was freezing there even with all my weapons equiped, the wind is godly strong with rain/snow falling on us, strong wind + rain/snow = pain, so in the end, it ended in 10min i think, we just took some photos, enjoy the cold wind abit and went back up.

Mt hakone, not as interesting as mt fuji, i think its 839m tall if i never rmb wrongly that is. The difference between the 2 mountains is one is fill with snow, the other filled with gas. Mt hakone was spewing out SO2( sulphur dioxide) since dont know how long ago, it was smoky but still manage to reach the top, not as awesome as mt fuji but it will do.

4th day: hello kitty land( yes i am serious -_-) akihabara(yay!)
Early in the morning, we went straight for hello kitty land, got caught up in a jam while i just slept all the way through the bus ride. The moment we reach there... ok imagine this. Entrance to hello kitty land is in the north while the shopping malls are in the south, we look at each other, smile abit and turn and walk south ^^
We headed for the shopping mall first, found some gachapon machine, mel went for kamen rider while me still deciding over whether to use it, in the end i still didnt buy it. After which, we went back into hello kitty land, it was excruciating, we only went for the trip. I think it was to introduce hello kitty stuff, cant really rmb =_= the main highlight was that i was totally scared of it, there was this room.... totally pink.... full of cute stuff.... too cute that i would faint... After the ride, we just head straight for the exit, never look back...

Next, we headed to akihabara, its like singapore's orchard road. Full of people but its anime paradise ^^ Found a chopper plush toy which i think i am giving away as christmas present. Of course, i bought quite abit of cards but the shop was too crowded for me to buy more, regretted that though. Saw alot of females promoting maid cafe, i think real humans not as interesting as anime so i guess i will pass.

Thats the end of my jap trip, quite short but still fun in any case, probably will go back there next year. Buy more stuff! For now, back to the reality in singapore... 29 degree celsius -_- haiz, damm sian

Another week has passed, relaxing abit since it is so close to the year end, perhaps next year everything will be hectic again... well, its next year's problem ^^
Anyway, this week was quite draggy somehow, seems like a long one though its a short one, played basketball everyday. This time i am trying to learn as much as possible during army and even after army before my uni starts. Why? cause the rest is learning and changing, it would feel unworthy to be with them if i keep up my usual self, army really change me totally from a person that hates crowd to a person that prefer to keep my friends... The past me would just let old connections fade away but it seems otherwise now...

Last part of this post, the reason i am playing basketball so often now is becos i wont be playing anything for 1 or 2 month next year, going for surgery in feb... Not that i really want it but my knee pain wont just fade away with time or anything, even during training i had to endure it, getting used to pain is not solving the problem... Just a small thought, so what if you lose yourself in midst of other personalities people are slowly influencing you with, its ok to be a little of everyone, establish the base and then finish up with your unique style.

another week has passed, time really flies, its already the last month of the year already. Soon, i will be 1 year soldier already, come to think of it, i learn quite abit in army, physical training, vocation related stuff, met new people, learn the difference in people but the most importantly, my thinking advanced further. I wouldnt go as far as to say it matured, perhaps i am still thinking like a kid but i finally establish my way of life in this world, do things with pride and honour and never to regret it. I might be tired of living in this wretched world but while i am here, i guess i need to have a fixed code to follow...

Humans are such troublesome creature, i am thinking too much = i need to find things to make myself busy but i am too lazy = i am still thinking too much -_-
bother...