Army finally getting busy though it doesnt really concern me. Busy with training this week, i am just trying to get along with my pitiful life, helping wherever i can. I guess having a leg problem makes u kind of useless. Must make peace with this =_=
Just to complain more about superiors, sometimes they cant seem to get the fact that they arent the ones doing the drills. Saying irresponsible stuff like being disappointed with our training, saying such mistakes happen over and over again, saying some things are plain obvious signaling that we are retards? or just plain heck care attitude. Its just too freaking screwed up. Do they have no idea how much words can affect people. Whatever negative things they say just directly influenced the whole platoon morale, we spent some time talking among ourselves and thats the conclusion we come to. Superiors doesnt = smarter

Now to the next part,
I have no freaking idea why i am being so honest nowadays, maybe its an unknown illness flying around or maybe i have been body swtiched. I dont know but still this is going to be a problem soon or rather it has been a problem. I am revealing far too much stuff hidden deep within my heart to the point i am having breakdown.

I cant blame other people for whatever they think, I have only myself to blame for my own faults, the road i choose is my responsiblity. The pain i received is my problem on my own. I do really thank caryn for saying that i dont need to change no matter how wierd i am... Its been awhile since i had that feeling, or rather its been so long finally hearing those words. 18 years is a long time...