Been thinking again lately since being at home give u quite alot of free time.
With the recent events, i realise that perhaps i really been escaping.
I guess at this point most people would expect that i would say to stop escaping and face reality. But thats not my point here, I think i will just keep escaping, no point in facing something that will fade away in the end.

Just have to wait for time to erase them, both happy and sad memories. I know i cant be better than most guys in the world, its a fact and i know it. Accepting it already but i guess its still stings alot. Just keep on running, one day it will be over. I had no dreams in this world anyway, there is nothing to look forward to. One's life is just study and work, living until you are dead. Fun experiences are just a bonus, sad experiences are just minus. Nothing is going to change, thats what i believe in. Its always better to be alone since whatever happens, its not going to change much. I just need my own world of anime and manga, humans are just a mere obstruction.

These feelings of longing, i wish to throw them away.