Dunno if you will ever see this message, in any case i just need to get this off my heart. Its not i dont appreciate your efforts, i really do. I am really happy to know that people care but the thing is i cant accept them. I cant accept kindness from anyone thats what i thought. If you ask me why anyone is being nice, i will just give you an answer that is totally unrelated to being nice. Being nice is no longer something that registered within me, i wonder how long has it been but that is that.

I just have to accept the way i am now, perhaps its bad in the views of others but in the end, its still me. Perhaps i should change but i dont know how. Still, i just want you to know that i am really thankful for everything though i believe the chapter is closing soon. Stories will always end without fail, be it in novels or in life. Nothing is forever.