This probably the last time i am gonna post. The reason for this blog to exist just disappear. I know i have sin countless times in my whole life but never such a big one. Sometimes when i know something bad is going to happen if i say some things, i still do it. Well, time for me to suffer again. Words really do hurt people.

Everytime i say i dont care actually i do
Everytime i say i hate this world but actually i like this world
Just because you are around.
I am negative to see the light
Whats white when there is no black to compare
Whats happiness when there is no suffering to experience
Whats friends when there is no lonliness

My greatest sin will be my pride.
I can never say the things i feel
Always trying to hide in midst of words
Always lieing just to hide

In life i never ask for much
Just give me a bunch of friends that i can trust
I can count on
And a simple life
I am contented

When i am asking for more
I am always asking for others happiness
I know they deserve alot more than me
No one will understand these since its never written down
Spoken aloud

In camp, i told one of my bunkmates
I had no regrets in life
Except to say 3 words
" I am sorry"
These 3 words to her
Sorry for making her angry
Sorry for insulting her
Sorry for even being in her life
Sorry that i even exist in the first place

If by chance, there is anyone that chance upon this
I beseech to learn from my mistake
Feelings should be spoken aloud
Dont wait for your friends to guess
Dont lie to them
Treasure the people around you
Before its too late

Thats the story of the mist
The final and last one
Maybe i will never be with her again
And she probably wont want it either
What i am doing seem hypocritical to her
Then so be it
Thats what i thought i would say
But at this point in time, all i want
Is her to forgive me